Regret

The good mood was ruined after getting the phone. I just finished my work and sat down to turn on the TV with a cup of tea, when Suman's phone rang. Suman is my younger brother. Small means, very small. About nine years younger than me. Now, however, he considers himself to have become a great teacher. Even that day, he was standing by the rope of his pajama, unable to tie it. And today is our birthday. Gargen that squeezes.

No more tea. After receiving the call, the mood rose to seven. Suman says elder Apa has been admitted to the hospital. This is a drama every few days. He was admitted to the hospital due to pneumonia. A lump sum of money, it has to be shared again by all the brothers and sisters. And just what money; Food for the patients in the hospital, food for those who will be with them, various tests, medicines - various problems.

My only daughter Trisha; Got a chance in Dhaka Medical last year.

                                   

Everyone wants him at this time. When he is around, everyone trusts him.

And so is the girl. What did he call, he ran away and dropped his studies. Hey! Isn't your time worth it? If you do this, you will have to spend your life as a compounder. Don't be a doctor anymore.

After thinking about seven or five, I got up and sat down. Then I fried eggplant. I quickly cut a little salad. I took out a packet of kebabs from the dip and fried a few. Sumana loves to eat my hand-made kebabs. Reba Hara0mjadita also did not come today. I have to do all the work alone. I will deduct his salary this month. Same story every month; But I can never cut salary for my boss sir. Salary will not be deducted, on the contrary, gratuity will be given. If I didn't wash the bathroom with her this time, my name wouldn't be Roksana Begum either. I will show you where Daya Dakshina comes from.

Suman is calling on the phone. I picked up the phone and said

- What happened?

- Mez Apa, come quickly.

- The khichuri must be boiled. I can not come with raw!

- No fuss. Doctor says condition is not good.

- That's what doctors say. He said last time. stay you i am coming

Are you thirsty?

- Yes. When did he come? There is also a brother-in-law. you come quickly

I was shocked. When asked to come to a work in the house, his ticket is not seen; And today he went to the hospital in leaps and bounds. come today

Damn! On the way out, the sandal broke. Unbearable! Suddenly I remembered many years ago. This is exactly how the sandal broke, the day I went to meet Kabir for the first time. I have just passed the BA exam. There was no result. Father came up to get married. He, however, was struggling since his father's matric examination. Couldn't only because of your big brother. The big upper marriage took place immediately after matriculation. As the year went by, a girl came to my lap. The elder brother-in-law played Los in business. Apa returned home with a bitter face. Daughter has no money to buy milk. My mother could not abandon her daughter in this condition. You stayed at home. I was in school then. No mind to study; Retail love is going on with Montu next door. Big Apa used to understand me. used to say 

- Look at me. If I had studied I could have got any job. It should not have been lying here like this.

A lot was said about Montu. As before, he was scolding and beating; After returning this time, there was no emphasis in your voice. The wife of an unemployed husband probably has this situation in her father's house. You have to lie down. It's been two years since Dulabhai took you home.

After my HSC exam, father again started pushing for marriage. Of course, there was a reason. Then I plan to run away with Montu. Montu failed matriculation and took a job in a garage. However, I had such a ghost in my head that I packed my clothes overnight after the exam. It's okay to go over the wall to the house next door; From there I will go down the stairs. Montu will be standing with the bike down.

A house built on old Dhaka. Montu has already talked to Zebad of the house next door. In the morning, I packed my bag and went to the stairs. He did not say a word when he saw me; Just a loud slap. I tripped and fell. My forehead was cut against the door. I didn't talk to my elder sister for a month after that. But yes, out of anger at you, or for whatever reason; I started my studies again. And the day I heard that Montu had run away with Jebad's maid, I was so disgusted with myself! How many times has Montu sent me letters with this girl; And finally with him? Shit!

After HSC result, Apa took me along and admitted me to Eden College. By that time anger towards him has come; Rather, it seemed that if I hadn't been stopped that day, what would my life be like today?

When I returned home to change my sandals, I found that the phone was ringing continuously on the land line. After picking up the phone, Suman said to Minmin from the other side

- Mez Apa, if you have cash at home, bring it.

The mood turned bad again. When they need money, everyone remembers only me. I don't remember when it was given. I quickly took the money from the cupboard and locked it again and went downstairs. While getting into the rickshaw, I noticed that the torn sandals had not been replaced. Even that day I met Kabir wearing torn sandals. You took me with you. Arrangements were made to meet at the Parliament House. On the one hand, it is good; There is no problem with eating. I didn't mind being seen. But my mood was upset after seeing the boy. Bata thought he looked too tall standing on the stairs? Battu where! Less hair on the head. Bridegroom, bridegroom foaming at the mouth.                                                              

Wrapped up